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seperti bulan yang gagal bercermin
tatkala kaki-kaki patah satu per satu
seperti telapak tangan yang meringik
tatkala surya menebar rasa tanpa asa
berkelok-kelok berliku-liku
mendongak surai berdenting khayalan
lampu kelap kelip aliran listrik
warna warni suka cita
tawa asing menjelma bising
namun dadanya kembang kempis
seolah bahagia itu gratis
kini kilau menerpa air got
cahaya bulan telah diserobot
dunia hampir runtuh
dunia siapa, dunia siapa-siapa
-07
recently i have forgotten your birthday. i still remember your voice and the way you talk. i've made peace with my feelings. but sometimes you appeared in my dreams as both fantasy and nightmare. you're something i wish i could erase. yet here i am clinging onto the smallest thing like your smile that would never be intended to me. memories are deceitful, and i hope so. i hope it's my memories that betray me, that i am actually just a sick person and you're nothing but a halucination. so i could drink the medicine and be okay. perhaps it is not about you, perhaps you've unfortunately became a proof of something more tragic than pure. a door for the darkness that has existed in me since a long time ago. it is pathetic how i froze whenever i saw a glimpse of your fractions in a crowd or when a stranger has your name, eventhough i knew it was not the real you. i have always known that loneliness takes half of my being. as if i am not 'me' if i do not have them...
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