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Aku mencoba menggenggammu di antara jemariku
Namun kamu melesat tak tergenggam
Menyisakan gelap dan kehampaan

Kutunggu kamu di antara dunia yang mengabu
Namun kamu tidak pernah ada di sini untuk membuatnya berwarna
Aku bertanya-tanya, siapa dirimu?
Apa dirimu?

Kuserukan kerinduanku yang amat rapuh di malam-malam sebelum tidur
Di mimpi yang terlihat nyata
Pada nama-nama yang tak bernama
Pada entitas tanpa identitas
Dimana kah kamu?

Kutangisi kehadiranmu dengan mata yang mengering
Bahwa aku kehausan dan tak bisa bernafas lagi
Bahwa aku sendirian dan tak bisa melihat lagi
Bahwa aku ingin berada di sisimu
Aku ingin bersama denganmu

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