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made of dreams

i sweat, girl, i sweat. the night sky is not pitch black, they are blue. and i felt something exploded in my nothingness. i swear, girl, i swear. i saw a paladin riding his white horse on the moon's face. and i don't know how to explain what does not exist. but it feels real, it feels real. i am most awake when i dream.

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